There is no hope for happily ever after,
To share my life with someone else as a dream will stay beyond accomplishment.
There is too much pain with my heart to trust for mediocre when there is better in heaven above!
To hurdle with death do us part and go thru the hardships in between...
There is no point to it all, in the end, we all die.
Life seems meaningless

Why have hope for a union only to be met with anger and sadness?
Why give me the desire to want this oneness yet it seems like I can achieve it at all?
Am I not faithful, do I not wait? Will I die forever with a hole in my heart just because I wanted something I cannot have?

Then maybe I have no other choice than to look to you and be content, crush every hope of ever being married...
Then I'll be free to breathe and be at peace