I know how hurting it was for you
Watching a father you loved so
Wasting away to an infliction you didn’t know
Leaving you young and longing
For a love none other could give
Scrounging for love’s leftovers.
That’s why I don’t blame you sis
For trying to find the love you missed.

I know momma tried, so hard, so passionately
But she left too soon, leaving you
To the mercy of a difficult world
A world so full of love and hope
Defined by material and greed
A world not made for our kind
Designed, but for our populace
Too dark, the love in our hearts, bleak
Outshone, dampened by eternal evil.

I had to move to another world baby,
Searching for a streak of hope
A ray of light to shine the road.
This odyssey, infested with thorns
Rocky barriers, holes and thorny roses
My skin they tear, my blood they suck.
My heart hurts for you, I shouldn’t,
Have left you all alone to
The mercy of a world without a head,
A battle ground without a heart.

Now that you are gone, I see
The shape of life, I see the color of love.
It haunts me that your mother, my love
My mother, left you to me
To take care of you and Amanda.
I tried, I lost my way, my focus
I let you down sis, I let everyone down
It is my daily prayer, that you make it
In this life you so rushed into.
Adulthood is stressful, motherhood is painful
I wish you the best, and remember
I will always be your best, any time you stress.