Mrs. Effingham's Swan Song Poem Rhyme Scheme and Analysis
Rhyme Scheme: ABACBDECDEFGHGIIJKLM NOJPQRGRSTQRRURU VWVXEYEWZZRROO A2B2C2C2D2C2B2ARRAE2 F2E2RRG2RF2H2 I2RDJ2RK2L2D L2K2 M2M2RN2M2RO2N2P2Q2DR 2DS2DT2U2T2V2W2X2W2X 2 M2T2QQT2N2RRP2P2QM2M 2P2QI am growing old I have kept youth too long | A |
But I dare not let them know it now | B |
I have done the heart of youth a grievous wrong | A |
Danced it to dust and drugged it with the rose | C |
Forced its reluctant lips to one more vow | B |
I have denied the lawful grey | D |
So kind so wise to settle in my hair | E |
I belong no more to April but September has not taught me her repose | C |
I wish I had let myself grow old in the quiet way | D |
That is so gracious I wish I did not care | E |
My faded mouth will never flower again | F |
Under the paint the wrinkles fret my eyes | G |
My hair is dull beneath its henna stain | H |
I have come to the last ramparts of disguise | G |
And now the day draws on of my defeat | I |
I shall not meet | I |
The swift male glance across the crowded room | J |
Where the chance contact of limbs in passing has | K |
Its answer in some future fierce embrace | L |
I shall sit here in the corners looking on | M |
With the older women withered and overblown | N |
Who have grown old more graciously than I | O |
In a sort of safe and comfortable tomb | J |
Knitting myself into Eternity | P |
And men will talk to me because they are kind | Q |
Or as cunning or a courtesy demands | R |
There will be no hidden question in their eyes | G |
And no subtle implication in their hands | R |
And I shall be so grateful who have been | S |
So gracious and so tyrannous moving between | T |
Denial and surrender To morrow I shall find | Q |
How women live who have no lovers and no answer for life's grey monotonies | R |
Upon my table will be no more flowers | R |
They will bring me no more flowers until I am dead | U |
There will be no violent sweet exciting hours | R |
No wild things done or said | U |
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Yet sometimes I'm so tired of it all | V |
This everlasting battle with the flesh | W |
This pitiful slavery to the body's thrall | V |
And then I do not want to lure or charm | X |
I want to wear | E |
Soft easy things be comfortable and warm | Y |
I want to drowse at leisure in my chair | E |
I do not want to wear a veil with heavy mesh | W |
Or sit in shaded rooms afraid to face the light | Z |
I do not want to go out every night | Z |
And be bright and vivid and intense | R |
Nor be on the alert and the defense | R |
With other women fierce and afraid as I | O |
Drawing a knife unseen as each goes by | O |
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I am so tired of men and making love | A2 |
For every one's the same | B2 |
There's nothing new in love under the sun | C2 |
All love can say or do has long been said and done | C2 |
I have eaten the fruit of knowledge long enough | D2 |
Been over kissed over praised and over won | C2 |
Why should I try to play still the old foolish game | B2 |
Because I have played the rose's part too long | A |
Who plays the rose must pay the rose's price | R |
And be a rose or nothing till it dies | R |
And even then sometimes the blood will answer fierce and strong | A |
To the old hunger to the old dance old tune | E2 |
I shall feel cruel and passionate and mad | F2 |
Though I have lost the look of June | E2 |
The fever of the past will burn my hands | R |
A men who live long in intemperate lands | R |
Feel the old ague wring them far removed | G2 |
From the old dreadful glitter of seas and sands | R |
The rose dies hard in women who have had | F2 |
Lovers all their lives and have been much loved | H2 |
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I am afraid to grow old now even if I would | I2 |
I have fought too well too long and what was once | R |
A foolish trick to make the rose more strangely gay | D |
Is now a close locked mortal conflict of brain and blood | J2 |
A feud too old to settle or renounce | R |
I shall grow too tired to struggle and the fight will end | K2 |
And they will enter in at last | L2 |
Nature and Time long thwarted of their prey | D |
Those old grey two more cruel for the lips that said them 'Nay ' | - |
For the bitterest foe is he who in the past | L2 |
Has been repulsed when he fain would be friend | K2 |
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I am sorry for women who are growing old | M2 |
I do not blame them for holding youth with shameful hold | M2 |
Or doing desperate things to lips and eyes | R |
They have so pitifully short a flowering time | N2 |
So suddenly sweet a story so soon told | M2 |
They only strive to keep what men have taught them most to prize | R |
Men who have longer fuller lives to live | O2 |
Who are not stopped and broken in their prime | N2 |
With their faces still to summer men do not know | P2 |
What Age says to a woman They would not wait | Q2 |
To feel slip from their hands without a throe | D |
Without a struggle futile and desperate | R2 |
All that has given them wealth and love and power | D |
Doomed without hope or rumour of reprieve | S2 |
They would not smile into the eyes of that advancing hour | D |
Who had bent all summer to their bow and had flung | T2 |
The widest rose and kissed the keenest mouth | U2 |
And slept in the lordliest bed when they were young | T2 |
That bitter twilight which sun worshipping Youth | V2 |
Flies headlong keeps Age loitering on the hill | W2 |
Uneager to fold such greyness to his breast | X2 |
Knowing that none will thwart him of his will | W2 |
None be before him on that quest | X2 |
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I am growing old | M2 |
I was not always kind when I was young | T2 |
To women who were old for Youth is blind | Q |
A small green bitter thing beneath its fragrant rind | Q |
And fanged against the old with boisterous tongue | T2 |
Those whose poor morning heads are touched with rime | N2 |
Walking before their misery like kings | R |
I did not feel that I should feel such stings | R |
Nor flinch beneath such arrows But now I know | P2 |
One day I shall be stupid and rather slow | P2 |
And easily cowed and troubled in my mind | Q |
And tremulous vaguely frightened feeble and cold | M2 |
I am growing old My God how old how old | M2 |
I dare not tell them but one day they will know | P2 |
I hope they will be kind | Q |
Muriel Stuart
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