I was so innocent, all I wanted to do was enjoy my childhood
But he tortured me inside out
He made me witness the worst
The trauma of it all is so overwhelming
I could not speak as I had no voice
I had no one to speak for me either
My voice was not for the voiceless
as I was the voiceless one
I cried every night out of fear
Hoping and praying he spares her breath
Hoping and praying for a normal life
I have never feared anyone the way I have feared him
Yes I blame him for ruining my childhood
I was too young to have my life figured out
Why do I feel like I am cursed
I was the only girl and the oldest who saw it all and it's so overwhelming
It felt like I was forced to have a voice
Like I was the leader
I had to lead and be the fearless one
But every night I'd drop a tear
Hoping today is my last breath
Trying and praying by all means for the above to take my life
It has been a roller-coaster all because of him
How I Grew
Buyi Gwavu
(C) All Rights Reserved. Poem Submitted on 07/17/2020
Poet's note: I wrote this poem around May 2020. I did not write it for a specific person but it is my way of expressing myself from what I have been through as a child. While writing this poem I felt so sad it brought back all the memories I had buried but I feel like it was worth it to write out my thoughts. This poem means a lot to me as it is about me, my past to be specific, it is just a summary of my past and it means a lot to me and I feel like there are some individuals out there who could relate to this.
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Poem topics: fear, feel, girl, never, today, innocent, young, tear, worst, enjoy, leader, breath, childhood, night, speak, life, voice, Print This Poem , Rhyme Scheme
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