When the sun set I can feel my fears crawling at me
Looking me in the eyes as I stare at my sanity deserting me
Happiness packing it's bags preparing to leave to let me be
Hallucination knocking upon the door how I wish I was a bee
I'd fly to other places where it is daytime to live...
Live in peace, be able to breathe, without anything worrying me.

Whenever it happens my heart races leaving me to endure the sufferings
All I can do is pretend to be okey to protect the smiles on the faces of my loved ones
Staying is hard, but I'm also not ready to leave yet, I still want to chase my dreams
Dreams! Dreams! Dreams!
I wonder if I still have those as all I do lately is drown and suffocate in my thoughts
When I am alone everything come back and make me realise how I am really scared

Every midnight I go on my knees and talk my heart out to God
That is what the special women in my life said would sincerely help
Dear God if you are listening please know that you are my only hope
You are the reason I'm still breathing and not attempting to give up
The only reason I still believe that this darkness will be conquered by your light
The only reason my star is not fading, but is still shining bright

I wish to scream and say that I'm not afraid, but I am very scared
Scared of fading away and of being defeated by the dark
Scared of the things I do not understand that I see in my head
Scared of the terrifying things that I saw with my eyes
The things I do not know that haunt me at night
But with my faith and prayer I know I am kept safe by God

Now I am not Afraid!