Sometimes I wake up
And I hate life...
Is it too weird to want
The end of strife?
Is it too crazy to consider suicide?
Is it okay?
To donate sad emotions
To the few who love me, sincerely?
Sincerely enough to cry if I die...

See, the truth is;
My friends think I'm a tough guy...
For that very reason
I always try not to show vulnerability.
I've been hiding my pains
Behind this fake face...
You know,
I'm talking about smiles, right??

At this point in time;
I've got 100plus missed-calls
On my phone,
42messages in the last 24hours.
One of the texts says;
"What's happening, bro?
You went AWOL"

Another asks;
"What's up, T?
Nobody's hearing from you at all...
What's going on??"
I wish I could explain it all
but this right here...
Is all summaries.

I couldn't put my feelings entirely
Into words, I could only try...
But, even if I could!??
The doubts of who to Trust
Has made me trust my doubts,
I doubt there's anyone I could trust!!
Even the ones i used to trust
Prior to my trust issues?
Broke the trust,
And even fooled me for funds...

"Truth is everyone would hurt you"
They say...
"Find the ones worth suffering for"
But who's really worth it??

When I need help,
Everyone flees from me.
Comes back to me
When they need help.
OR, when days are Rosey...
Well, I'm in need of help.
So who would help me??
Apparently, Nobody...

Why does living life
feel like living Hell?
Why can't nobody have it all?
Me especially?
I can't tell...

It seems lame writing
a suicide note.
It'll only be a wack letter,
So with a toast before obituary,
Cheers... FAREWELL!!!