i wake up and stare at myself in the mirror
to find a girl who is broken
scared and terrified for the realization to sink in
that i will never be in control of my emotions
that my days will always be the same

feelings of unworthiness , self depreciation
feelings of never being able to attain true happiness
feeling like you’ll never be good enough
though in the eyes of loved ones your presence is just enough

your smile lights up the room
your energy is craved by most
your care for others is envied by most
and yet you never seem to understand just how phenomenal you are

in all aspects it is hard to ask for something that you know is unattainable
yet somehow we end up craving the feeling of exhilaration