The battle for the Soul is as
brutal as the battles of men,
but sight of justice is the pleasure
of God alone.

ARTHUR RIMBAUD

I
I used to dream! Yes, there once was a time,
but they never seemed to come true. So over the
taunting time that elapsed, my reality became
violently twisted and composed of chaotic hues!

Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever
beneath the dawn of escape and never awake...
Yes, never awake!

O, how I wish I were a young lad again, full
of hopes and dreams that someday when...I would
be grown and the truth would be known. But now
that I am, I find the truth not at all very
kind!

So now, my dreams have become reality and
my waking life, but an illusion from the blind
eyes of a philosopher!

II
FANT/LUSION

LIFE is indeed the big illusion!
A dark and weary Dream!
An infinite recycling circus!
The ultimate gamble!

Throw down thy soul upon the Roulette
wheel of Chance and give her a
SPIN!

Round and round, watch it go.
Where will it stop? Only one knows!
Tis judged by your actions committed
on a physical sphere. By the power
of which spirit will you pray? To
what voice, will you adhere?
How up, if at all, will you end?

Eternal celestial Paradise you could
hold freely in the palm of your hand OR
Darken your Soul wallowing about in the
ashes of Sin and a perpetual furnace of
tormenting agony you shall...
win?

III
Be you a Wise Man or a Fool, in the End,
all will be Judged the same. All that truly
matters is how you play the GAME.

IV
The hand that hurts can also become the
instrument that heals. Like a razor blade
sealing an open wound with sterile precision.
A master of undying compassion!

V
I'm slowly digging my grave with each Word
that I write! And in the End, I'll be buried
DEEP, forever left to sleep, yet awakened every
so often to be tortured by the Demons that have
possessed me during my life and will follow me
into Eternity!

VI
We must shelter the innocent from Life's
corrupting rain and temptation's beautiful
yet deadly web of inevitable destruction!

VII
Beneath the neon Sun, the night explodes with
both passion and pain. Couples in Love walk
hand in hand past an alley sheltering a battered
woman and her child dressed in rags, faces expressionless;
yet the agony easily slips through their not so tough
exterior Wall in the form of blood and tears!


VIII
Though lost you are in the blackest of nights, I
will comfort thee and give you new Life! Shed not
those tears and abandon your fears. I will give you
Peace and for your Soul, I shall grant Eternal Happiness!

Even as I sit on my throne, by the blinded Fool
I am convicted, but in judgment, the tables will
be turned against them; yet for those who believe,
no more wounds upon thy Soul will be inflicted!

Peace for the pure!
Poverty for those who possess riches, attempting
to shield their insecurity and lack of Love with
tarnished glitter!

Watch the innocent myrmidons labor for their masters!
Blindly and slowly dying with each passing
breath spent working beneath the Sun! No Life to
lead is one spent in bondage, but it's only physical
and just a fraction of the Time that you will someday
know!

Fear not, for ye shall receive your reward where
Love is forever present. Your master's fortune was
built all in VAIN! The wealth will bury their bodies
and melt down their heart and Soul unless they rid
themselves of false fortune and gain Real tangible
glory through Love and repentance!

Not so easy giving up All your Worldly goods and
knowledge to follow a Prophecy designed in another
Realm which solely exists because of your faith.

Living on an Earthly kingdom whose gods are physical
and temptation is forever present, most of these dwellers
don't recognize the Laws of this Ethereal Doctrine!

But that's okay! Become a martyr! Die in Vain, if
that's what they say but ye shall reap the harvest of
your suffering and never know Pain!

We're all just chasing after an illusion of Light
created by our unconscious minds, but when the Truth
is revealed, your darkness will be shown...Nevermore
to be sealed! YOU HYPOCRITE!!

IX
Just in case your wondering about the poet's sanity:
It seems to come and go from time to time but as of right
now, everything's ALMOST fine! HA!

YES! There will be no Reality for me as long as I have
the ability to create!!

Now I begin to wonder.
My thoughts haunt me as my mind begins to drift and
inquisitively ponder:

what is to become of me once I cross over into the
Afterlife? The twisted Cross and horrors of Hell or
the Sacred tears of Heaven?

STOP!

O piercing eyes and bleeding heart, for one moment
please release me from the torturous knowledge of facts
that so burden my soul with PAIN!

I wish to know nothing! I will not leave my mark on
this world, for I have never even existed physically.
Only mentally in the nightmares that your easily
influenced mind possesses!

Listen to me!

Insanity occurs when your mind can't accept
your true present reality, so you unconsciously
create your own and try to live up to it!

Then you lose it! HA! HA! HA! Madness is so
much fun!

But it's perfectly normal on this planet. I have
seen many cases before but not as acute or perfected
as mine!

You see. I've already recognized my illness and can
keep it in constant balance with reality. Reality?
What's that? Switching over in an instant. controlling
the thoughts. Directing them. like kinetic energy being
drawn forth from the vortex of the mind! HA! HA! HA!

Insanity! The most painful disease known to Mankind!
Neither Cancer nor AIDS can eat away at you as fierce
as this cold Bitch can!

Yes, the Beast knows not mercy, for he has never been
granted any himself! Beaten, electrocuted and locked
away to rot! Yes, I guess you could say his temper got
rather hot. Lovely vengeance, let's play games. You're
first...and the last!!

It's the disease of all poets, philosophers and dreamers
everywhere. I still can't believe it's shunned and looked
down upon the way it is since it's shared the company of
so many great men and women throughout the ages!

Once the mind goes, it's over! You'll never be truly
reborn or resurrected again! Cast in Hell on Earth!

Led blindly into the fire to be slowly consumed by human
hatred and mockery! Lucifer rules Earth with a hungry
grin. It's his monopoly. He wants you to SIN!!

X
Earth is Satan's playground and people, merely rides!
See how easily his powers can overcome you? His
transmissions, through our own devices, can unconsciously
hypnotize!

If you make this place your kingdom, in a similar domain
you will abide. Please, relinquish your grasp on this
false haven for your Soul and ye shall finally know the
Truth. Never again will it hide!

Blind eyes, they mislead you! How could you let your
faith be shattered by lies? You give up Eternity for
fast salvation!

Remember this: Once your Soul falls, never again
shall it rise!

XI
The farther I slip away from Reality's loose grasp,
much harder it becomes to answer the riddles I ask.
In this World's oldest question, I humbly asked, "WHY?"
It's for you to know my son...AFTER YOU DIE!!!


XII
In my agony I left behind, a world torn and tortured,
unkind. Tears stream down my pale cheeks as I fly
high above the desolate ground on wings of sorrow with
a song that only the deaf can hear! How unwise you
were to have wasted my gift to you! I thought you would
have learned by now: Once you fall, the cold ground is
quite near.

XIII
Vices are nice when reality's no fun but take them
away...and you're on the RUN! HA! HA!

I know it's hard to fight a losing battle without a
shield but stand tall and give Life your best.
Just unfurl your Flag of Denial toward Temptation and
your problems will surely yield!

XIV
Things or people you know nothing about cannot be
judged accordingly! Ignorance of an issue means you
have no business inquiring in the first place. So unless
you want to be killed by your own curiosity:
Stay away unless your willing to play!

Dark is your mind, kept lit only by your desire to
douse my raging inferno. You say I lie? Do you have
another version of the Truth?

Everyone does! Only when we try to prove the validity
of our truths do we have conflict! Right and wrong become
divided concepts in each of the debaters minds!

Your truth, to them, are just Lies and their Reality,
to you, are but Dreams! Incomprehensible logic to minds
that are closed! Knowledge is your only way to gain freedom!

XV
My immortality, I will not deny. Death claimed me in
the end only to sacrifice me later to the god of perpetual
incarnations!

XVI
Dreams cast out to the public unaware, are but misty
vapors, invisible logic...not there. Yes, it's
sad but true, too often we find our personal convictions
being overruled by the harsh truth set forth by temporary
gods...unkind!

Please tell me, why must I be cursed with this gift
of second sight? Locked inside this fortress and tortured
by my phantasmal might?

I don't know, do you?