Flashcards Of Moods Poem Rhyme Scheme and Analysis
Rhyme Scheme: ABCDEFGHBIJKLMNOPBCF QRIIFSTUUTUFBAIBBTVI IAB| I thought no one could hate me more than myself | A |
| But I forgot I had my mother | B |
| So now I ve made six flashcards for the most ever occurring moods of hers | C |
| One is when she curses the day I was born | D |
| Two is for the times she laments my existence | E |
| Third is for days I forget to look as fair as and as healthy I m supposed to be | F |
| Fourth is because sometimes I lose But sorry ma I swear I tried | G |
| Fifth is for days she reminds me how I ruined her life I apologize that I m responsible for your life choices | H |
| And last for days when I expect anything out of her | B |
| All these flashcards are color coded | I |
| Magenta Turquoise Arsenic Neon Peacock and Death | J |
| With solutions to each mood written as follows | K |
| Don t react let the storm pass you don t want to hurt her she doesn t realize what she s saying | L |
| Remember what all the authors talked about loving Loving in sunshine and loving in hurricane | M |
| But I think I need some more cards now | N |
| Maybe of color Teal Ash and Cray | O |
| Because suddenly these flashcards stopped working after years | P |
| Since the last two years I fight back and hurt myself more than I hurt her | B |
| While asking for answers | C |
| Is it my fault that I can t love conventionally | F |
| Is it my fault that I suffered individual trauma you refuse to acknowledge | Q |
| Is it my fault that I feel empathy for people other than you That doesn t make me feel any less for you ma | R |
| Is it my fault that I am in perpetual pain Maybe it s inside my head but does that make it any less vaild | I |
| I ll probably need a blank flashcard too | I |
| Because most of the times I don t understand why she hates me | F |
| Maybe because I refuse to carry the generations of trauma | S |
| Women have been carrying as burdens on their souls | T |
| Maybe because I refuse to blame her for her own oppression | U |
| But also refuse to pass on this toxicity to a further generation | U |
| Because I am not like the Shabanas and the Jyotis | T |
| Who accept oppression as fate and think of respect as an obligation | U |
| Or because I m a child hated by destiny | F |
| Who can ever love a person not loved by her mother | B |
| She hates me because maybe I m the whole universe stored in myself | A |
| And I refuse to be apologetic about it | I |
| Because I refuse to act like a good daughter | B |
| And you see maybe I m actually not a good daughter | B |
| Because at the end my mother is like a colorfully designed bokeh on my camera lens | T |
| And irrespective of how much I try | V |
| Every pattern every landscape every picture is captured with her presence in it | I |
| I can t see my universe without seeing what she sees in it | I |
| I thought nobody could hate me more than myself | A |
| I forgot I had a mother | B |
Maity Sudipta
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