Riding the highs and lows.
I am out of control:
Unable to control my impulses
Unwilling to follow my conscience
Of the beaten track unwilling to turn back
I should know better usually following the rules to the letter
Unwilling to stop myself deeper and deeper I delve…
I am willing to drown for now.
Enjoying every moment of my enlightenment.
The highs and lows could be my downfall.
It was my downfall. I am now only able to crawl.
Feeling helpless and alone cuts deep to the bone.
Cutting myself, a form of punishment….