Regret

I am suicidal
But I don't want to die
I don't want to cry
But I cause myself pain
I still fall for love
In the end my heart is slain

Ask me why I am like this
I won't have an answer to that
All know is scars
Dripping pus on my desires
Reoccuring nightmare's
Still haunt my dreams

Lost my only chance
To take you to the dance