I Hate Me

Does it mean you won't express yourself
Why do you let your donts be your dos
You just can't say it's not what you want
I can't believe am injust to myself
When other tear me down, I tear myself more
When people don't value me,
I even don't even preserve my self esteem
Before others say am ulgy,
From within me it originates.
For success one believes in themselves
What do I do instead? I just give up
I can't defend myself from anything bad
I do everything to please people
I end up loosing me.
I hate me...
I really hate me