How Did I Lose Her Again?

The first time Olia broke up with me, I felt as if my life was over.
I thought love had ended for her and me, but good fortune was on our side.
After about two years had passed, she tried to rekindle our love.
I couldn’t believe it when Olia called me and said she wanted to see me.

When I went to Olia’s apartment, she could sense my uneasiness.
She spoke to me kindly, and she made me feel comfortable around her.
I didn’t expect this to happen, but somehow, she took me back.
Olia forgave me, and she gave me a chance that I didn’t deserve.

Even though I wanted our relationship to work, I didn’t try hard enough.
I should’ve learned from my mistakes, but I’ve screwed up my life again.
Olia dumped me for the second time, and this time she’s serious.
The reason for losing the woman I love twice is not easy to explain.

I’m ashamed to admit that on both occasions I was the one at fault.
And I’ve asked myself repeatedly, “How did I lose her again?”
It would be a miracle if Olia pitied me and took me back one more time,
So I really believe that love has finally ended for her and me.