Decision

My subconscious mind continually questions my decisions,
Listen to the voice it says,
Pay attention to every details,
Quiet your mind and listen to the divine,
My conscious mind continually questions my hesitations,
Constantly questioning, why?
Though the voice speaks, the battle between both minds causes chaos,
Now in a state of confusion,
I want to win, yes I really do,
But what's winning?
How can I tell I'm winning?
Who even told me I'm losing that gives me the urge to win?
My conscious mind says kill the boy and let the man take over,
My subconscious mind says nurture the boy, for he's all that makes you human,
I love the boy but I need the man,
I fear the man but I respect the boy,
I look at the man through the eyes of the boy,
I see fear in the eyes of the man,
Though he's fearless, his only fear is the boy,
The boy is love, the man is rage,
They both complete me, for without one, the other is powerless.