I'm Afraid Of Closing My Eyes

It's dark and dreadful,
All alone in a fremd land.
Had fate been merciful,
We'd be basking in a beach sand.

I'm not for a blindfold adventure,
To fall asleep to rely on unseen.
I'd rather stay awake to see my future,
I'd be more alert and remain keen.

There's no manna on the other side,
With eyes closed it's only nightmares.
Giving up a self I once cried,
I'm not ready to face my fears.