You were handsome, you always had the lime light
Daddy knew it, he always dressed you pretty
He was so proud of you, he would show you off anywhere
But I never was jealousy anyway
All I knew is I had a big brother.
I always wanted to be like you
I competed with you to be you
We fought, you always beat me
In the fury, the rage, I knew I would never beat you
But in death you didn't have to beat me.
I remember the school days
The small twins, we were the center of attention
But only me, knew what a big brother I had in you
You would always be my big brother no matter what
I shunned the attention, I could have loved you more.
Strange how much I loved you
But never would show a clue about it
We grew up, and so did the distance
The river between us grew wider
But you always had my back, still my big brother.
I ignored the adoration I had for you
Always knew nothing would come between us
Ours was unbreakable, cast in diamond
It was the best thing I had for keeps
That was a dear and loving brother.
I let the waters of the river rise too high
I took it for granted they would subside
Never thought I could run out of time
To walk to you, when the flood went down
But when it did I got stuck in the mud.
I regret every day, those opportunities I let go
I should never have waited that long
To show you the love I always knew I had for you
I now hold it in shame, can't find a you to give it to
It's such a heavy burden to bear
If only you could give me another chance
I promise I will never let you out of my sight.
Remember me telling you
That for as long as you lived, your position I wouldn't take
You never would have known, how sweet it was to be a little brother
I wouldn't see my big brother cry for help
Because I always thought it was my preserve
For that, I pay dearly, my heart cries for you daily.
I wish and wish everyday
I could live the same life again
I would give you my love every minute of my life
I would never imagine
How empty life would be without you.