another lonely quiet night like usual ,
i didn't study , went to the gym
fought with someone i once called home.
i cried my ass out that my eyes burned red.
a splitting headache .
my soul keeps telling me to move forward
but my body needs that break.
sometimes i Wonder why does the human pain needs a proof
an illeness , medicines , scars and living aloof.
why must we always name everything to admit its existence !
can't u see simply my eating disorder , the indifference
the hair loss and the dark circles carved under my eyes!
it wasn't that important anyway, i will keep silence
like always swallowing my pianful cries.
she was a best friend that one day i trusted , 3 years later
i cry of betrayal and she's crushing on my biggest fear maker.
once we shared the laughter , the pain and the worst moments
i opend up for her bout the past , the present and the loudest arguments !
“It doesn’t matter,” I said,
with a heart too heavy to carry its own memories.
But they return every second,
reminding me —
she was a sister
who walked away with my melodies.