I remember,
Looking into your blue green eyes,
Beautiful as the sky
Wondering how far this could go
But how could I know?
We were taking it slow and I-
You kissed me.
Like it was the only thing you could think about this whole time
You told me “Goodnight beautiful” while you waved goodbye
And I wondered if maybe,
You really could be mine
Because once upon a time, in a young and naive mind,
I saw eternity behind your blue green eyes
What’s worse is that I knew it was a stupid thing to think
Things like that are how I’d end up drowning myself in drinks
And even though you haven’t left yet,
I can feel it coming
The warm summer air is ruined as winter makes it way by storm
And I will suddenly not be able to find my positive, cheery form
The night won’t mean much when there’s only tears
Tears that cover these pages
Tears trying to cherish every little thing that may be forsaken
I look at the messages as I wait for one back
My mom tells me that a boy shouldn’t make me this sad
And I know she’s right
I know that I have better things to do with my life
But damn it all I just wish i could’ve fixed it
Before I ruined it
All I wanted was you close to me all the time
When you told me you wanted space it was fine
Even though I knew before you said it that it was going to kill me on the inside
But what does it matter?
I’m still here and you haven’t left
I should be grateful
But why is this gratefulness not felt?
I’m not getting what I need
But anyone who knows me knows I won’t leave
Because no matter what I will always think back to the time
In my young and naive mind
When I saw eternity behind you blue-green eyes