Trying so hard, to fit in the crowd...
Always reaching out, sacrificing, so I can be noticed.
Happy times,sad times, uncomfortable moments... I'm like a mark on you, always there.
But when the times change,, I realise I'm only a clown, making everyone else happy but me.

I am always trying to understand, always trying to see reason, leaving to people please.
And ooh, don't get me wrong, I am not weak, it's just that, If life was food,,
" I find joy in watching others eat" but it's not as simple.

Sometimes I wish people could be genuine,, I know it's hard to clear the doubts,, but did you even try?
Labels, stories, fallacies, no ground for understanding...
If I deviate, or fail, even when I get drawn back,, giving my reasoning is labelled an excuse or blunt lies.
I'm just the boy who cried wolf, only that this time, the wolf was really coming...
If I disappeared, would they even notice.

Someone said,"I wish I was happy like you, with no worries or fears".
If only they knew, how long I had to practice, to master this personality.
Not dreaming too far, but always hoping tomorrow is better.
Hoping it comes when I can face it.