Daily Fear(gynophobic)

My heart has long been fractured
Its fractions sailed through the sea
Gynophobic here i am in the wilderness
Shaking and trembling though i am trying to contain it
Disheartenment I suppressed is at times vivid
Pestilential thoughts are pestering me can't keep them at bay
Going by are years as plans are rusting while being procrastinated
Self esteem took flight and right it was so i guessed
Tossed and turned for comfort hunting but luck i didn't have