Anhedonia And You | JR Aguirre

The same pleasures that I enjoyed no longer please me
The question is what led to all of this
I used to adore the simplicities
But now I fall in love with the impossibilities
Of understanding what it means to be fully alive
I loved you when it hurt the most

Isn’t it crazy how people can affect your life so easily
And how I didn’t realize the complexities of my morality
You listened with your ears and you looked with your eyes
But I listened and looked with my heart
We never we’re on the same page
And I don’t think we ever will be

The ubiquitous enjoyment that gave my world colour
Faded away when you entered my life
But I can’t blame it all on you for simply existing
I can only blame myself for accepting you
I just stopped enjoying everything
Because all I could think about was us

I guess you were a living embodiment of anhedonia
A rare occurrence that I wish I never experienced
You took all the pleasure away from me
And you didn’t even realize it
Now all the normal things don’t spark a flame anymore
All they do is flicker the lights of my enjoyment

I should have taken the chance back then
And listened to my consciousness
And God, maybe just maybe I’m overthinking it
I really hope I am, because I never want to experience it again
Maybe there is hope again, a second chance to change
With Anhedonia and You

Poet's note: This poem embodies Anhedonia as a person in a stereotypical high school relationship. I wanted to illustrate a feeling most fellow high schoolers feel nowadays in this generation. This poem isn't targeted to anyone specific, but simply for a young demographic. This poem means a lot to me, as it seems to be my first serious piece of works.