Survival

What is the reason behind my existence?
Why don’t I get what I crave for ?
choices never mattered
opinions were shattered
always had reasons to say no
Say no and the growth is questioned
Say yes and I am loved
Always got what you feel is right
Whom is it right for ?
For you or for me ?
It’s more of you living under my name
More like a hard rock than a living soul
You know what it means to be dead
Though your heart still pumps and you still breathe
Smiles are never seen
Laughs are always keen
Tears rolled down
Blink and happiness disappears
Blinked again, hoping it comes back
I wonder where it is ?
Buried deep under your Rights and wrongs
All this and still surviving ?
there ought to be a reason
Search for the reason
Explore the reason
Bare all this until it is found
Turn back to a living soul
Just staying strong
For I have days to live ahead
The days that actually matter ....