Changes Building Up

Maybe the only thing keeping me here
The thought of never being able to exist again
I’d be long gone if it was a different concept
If existence was possible even after going six feet underground
There is no surrender in this war
Weapons won’t lay themselves down
The dire need to put it out
Makes my mind go all fuzzy


Don’t want to keep on waiting
I have got to keep myself steady
Show them demons, I am ready
I wish the gravity was strong enough
Pull me deep, leave me to bleed
Don’t you all weep
For I could have been yours to keep
If only you could have seen
The changes building up in me


Nothing seems quite alright
It’s all dark, what was once so bright
Before the falling, something within was soaring
Kept me from going
Not letting me slip into the cracks in between
Now it all seems just like a dream
As if the colors were just an illusion


Don’t want to keep on waiting
I have got to keep myself steady
Show them demons, I am ready
I wish the gravity was strong enough
Pull me deep, leave me to bleed
Don’t you all weep
For I could have been yours to keep
If only you could have seen
The changes building up in me


As I bend over
Giving up to the sound in my brain
Touch my hands on the ground
Hold my breath and hear the sound
Of this heart started to pound