I Miss Myself

It's been a while.
Lots of lines missing.
And I won't lie
It's kinda pissing.

I have had to live in lost.
Sold out the real me to lust
Lost the best part of me the most
Right now, getting myself back is a must.

Few years ago i thought I was broken
Na now I know say na shake Dem shake me
Because I had to eat my pain and drink my tears.
For no one cares.

As heavy as my heart beats
No one hears it.
Not even those I kept in it.
Those in my heart that occupies seats.

Then I wonder, what if everyone isn't meant to taste honey.
Because not every sweet things can be bought with money.
What if this is my fate?
What if my amendment is too late?

Could it be that there are people meant to see bushes and not roses?
Or could it be that there are people meant to be Moses?
Born hopeless but ends with lots of hope and fulfilment.
Fulfilment from his life accomplishment.

I could only wonder without an answer to my questions.
Maybe, just maybe there are solutions.
I hope one day I could find them.
And if I couldn't, what a shame.