Save Me From These Lies

My life is full of sadness and fear that i always feel.
Having the freedom that I thought was a blessing which isn't real.
But unknowingly a curse that can kill.
Letting us risk between mountains of choices to unveil.
When all of that is suffering and pain, ready to reveal.

I exist but as a soulless and lifeless being.
A being not merely living.
Continously having glimpse of the past, creating nightmares which they enjoy watching.
Watching me torture myself while nonstop crying and suffering.

I'm alive but almost dying inside.
Dying from my vast illusion of an imprisoned mind.
Endless nightmares which I cannot escape and hide.
Can someone save me because I'm afraid to die.