You Feel So Distant | Bhavya Singh

I stood still , paralyzed
I can't fathom! Was it really you?
It's all so intensified
I can't feel myself too.
I didn't dare blink away the blur
in case you disappear.
I was staring at you ,
You felt so distant ,
I slurred, "You feel so distant".

How did I expect a straight
path while my life has been
a disaster so far?
I was afraid ,
the silence might let you hear
my heart break.
And today I couldn't tell you
'I am okay' even you knew
I wasn't indeed.
Not a glance at me
you retrieved your steps back
walked away, my tears flow
as you take yourself far away
you felt so distant
at just a feet's distance

This time no running after you
but not that I didn't want to
but I couldn't bring myself to.
Either the weather was rainy
or I was.
You disappeared from the way
and I could tell , it was raining
but this time not only me
but both of us
He felt so distant
I whispered , " You feel so distant".

Poet's note: I wrote this poem to elucidate my immense heart wrenching pain when I lost somebody dear to me. It was almost as excruciating as if my heart ripped out from my chest. the poem's essence is the person said harsh words to me and my teras flew down my cheeks . my expectations of this person being different than anyone else was false, when the person left me and walked away , it broke my hope to stay on the surface. First I weep and alongside the sky rains and the person leaves just the sky and I remain.