XVII
THE MIND LEARNS, THE HEART YEARNS
O LOVE, why hast thou not cast your shadow on thee?
I know...It was my fault! You were never invited into
my life.
In my blind pursuit of fortune and glory, Avarice, that
lustful fellow, took hold of my heart and suspended it
most painfully for what seemed like Eternity until I was
forcibly dropped to my knees and made to beg for your
divine gift!
In my blatant stupidity, I was wrong!
Riches do not warm your heart with happiness nor fill
your Soul with Peace! Never again will I stray, for I
dare not take that lonely path again!
XVIII
When you first entered into Life's world of Power
and Lies, did you ever think you were contributing
to your own demise? I think not!
So torn apart in mind and heart, your wounds will
never heal. You wanted excitement, money and fame,
so with your own greed, you struck a deal!
XIX
In God's eyes, Everything is One under the Sun!
Only humans Divide.
Life is like a fist full of sand. You hold it in your
palm for a brief moment, then it easily slips through
your fingers like it was never meant to be!
Tis not for fame that I wrote this, but for some
lonely dream child to read it and blow me a kiss:
Honoring the precious fluid spilt from my still
Bleeding Heart!
XX
I have learned this: If you have something that
you love, someone out there in this cold world is
going to take it away from you if you make your
pleasure known to them!
Let no one know your true feelings, for you will
be condemned by your own release!
XXI
Our naked faces hide behind many masks, granting
us expression. Our thoughts remain unheard by
mortal ears yet surface, like a thief in the night,
through Painting, Song and Poetry, the voices of
the gods!
XXII
Close your eyes sweet child and dream! Thou
needst not awake only to be blinded by that which
I have tried to shield you from!
Sweet Sorrow, please abandon me!
Begone darkness! Shroud me not with your curses
of Death! Alas, in other days I might have wished you
to claim me yet...not now! God how I savor each
passing breath!
Your angels, they caress me with their tranquil songs.
How peaceful they seem...yet still so far away from a
mortal's touch...much too long.
Humans have longed for immortality ever since the beginning
of Time, but it's that uncertainty of what follows
Death...it makes that Bell... they wish it not
to chime!
And that struggle for survival; the animal instinct
within us all, it makes us fight to the bitter end.
Yet even if Time is infinite, mere flesh alone cannot
yield the soul's request to be free! So eventually, it
decays and returns to it's pristine state...
...Grains of golden glitter awaiting rebirth into the
Dawn!
XXIII
APOCALYPSE
O Horsemen of Doom, Man's image in different form,
why have you brought forth destruction every since
the Earth was born?
Temporary Paradise once held you in your stall but
that soon vanished upon Sin's introduction to Man...
now only darkness falls!
Your hooves claw deep this mangled Land. War has
made his appearance as many a Ruler with a greedy and
lustful hand.
Death abounds, bringing Night to people so ill, yet
if disease doesn't do you in, someone else will try
to kill!
Someday, Good will overcome Evil forever! It has been
written. But not soon enough to stop the World's
progressive suicide before her destruction and rebirth!
Morally, spiritually, ethically!
No not physically!
You see, Satan's familiars embody our souls and blind
us unknowingly, for we cannot see or touch them. They do
their damage working through our thoughts and actions and
are unavoidable to Worldly dwellers not yet Saved!
Destined since the beginning of Time. All of Mankind
must pay for the first Sin every day that they live
on Earth. Praying for release from their sentence but
there will be no Pardon...only Death and Judgment!
We are but ripples in the puddle of Life. Made to run,
then disappear, never to be seen again!
Our real purpose, none of which there is, kept hidden
by tasks conjured up from ethereal hands because
Miracles sinned!
DUST! Crystallized organs and intelligence! Just add
water and blood with a little divine influence thrown in
to make the miracle complete!
Build yourselves a kingdom, you need me not. I have
abandoned you temporarily, just as backs have been turned
on me, to see how well you handle Temptation! You curse
me when something goes wrong but it's not I hearing your
hypocritical screams!
Foolish mortals, you'll never believe me until it's too
LATE!
XXIV
As the fallen rise up and the past risen return to
their kingdoms beneath, Time once again repeats itself.
Same plot, scene, script. Different actors, actresses
and setting!
This time, it's now!
Beware of the Bitch with a dagger in her hand! Turn
not your back and close your heart! If you let her get
too close, she'll tear you apart! Do it with a smile
baby!
Love aborted, pain abounds. Your flesh once caressed
mine, now only coldness surrounds!
In the midst of my dreams, I prayed not to awake. I
could have held you there for Eternity yet you slapped
me from my peaceful slumber and told me it was a mistake!
O please do not shatter my Life this way! Can't you
give me just one more chance? You've made me realize how
foolish I've been. How can you write about Love when you've
never known true Romance?
I am exposed now! Poison me with your impurities!
XXV
THE JUDGMENT
My God, why hast thou forsaken me during my hour of
trial? What sin has cursed me to deserve your denial
of help?
Upon the wings of all that is Holy, I humbly come before
you...on my knees...to seek your forgiveness, yet even
with a tear in my eye you forcefully penetrate my true
Soul and see through my hypocrisy.
Only you God, can read me true.
Never a year will escape me now, for I will live forever!
Awake in the midst of Insanity and sleep deep beneath
the burning coals of HELL!
In the midst of my Dreams I was awakened by harsh
Reality!
WHY? WHY? WHY?